Confusion

Hi all, its Casey here agin with john.  He's on a reasonable amount of morphine so he sleeps quite a lot. Hes on steroids to reduce the swelling in his brain and some other medication to prevent seisures, but otherwise just carrying on. He has had enough in many ways, he's not been out of bed for 10 days and is increaseingly confused. The parania he had a week or so ago may be reducing but he's still dealing with the grief of his condiction and the reducing of dignity that comes with it. 

We're in contact with the paliative care team, so he may get moved at some point if there's a further need for it. Most likely place is Oxenhope near Haworth. Thanks for the messages and photos on his phone, we read them out every couple of days.

Cricket Season

Hello everyone, Chas here with John in sunny Grassington.  He sleeps a lot these days, but has no pain mercifully. Very little appetite either.  He can still talk but finds it hard.  He mentioned some clarity that he can perceive, and that he feels at peace.  He slept fine last night. He loves listening to the various birds singing outside.

He can't really articulate if he wants visitors or not. Anyone who did visit would struggle to hold a conversation with him, but he might appreciate just sitting in the stillness

 Hi everyone. It might be difficuklt for me to communicate or write anything....  my son Chas is writing this.  please be patient, sorry if i dont reply to your messages and voicemails

A pathless land...

the wisest people on the planet have no dogma to peddle, no commandments to issue, no ideology to impose. They neither demand obedience nor recruit followers. They suggest, insttead, that we look for ourselves, within ourselves, and test our intuitions against observable reality. Jiddu Krishnamurti (1895-1986) said more in just five words – “Truth is a pathless land” – than I found in the foundational texts of our Abrahamic religions (and Mark Twain was nearly as concise in the quote which serves as my book’s epigraph). Compare and contrast Krishnamurti’s clear-eyed observation with Jesus’s pronouncement, in John 14:6, one of the Bible’s most quotable verses, that “I am the way, the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father exce through me”. The only way to the truth? What are the odds that the truth is to be 'found only in orthodox Christianity, or any one of those 40,000 dissenting denominations, or any one of the other major religions in the wordl

compulsory love...

The doctrine of compulsory love plays a pivotal role in Christian theology. The essence of sado-masochism, exemplified in the master/slave relationship, is being forced to love the one we fear: a divine commandment which is impossible to obey. God created us sick, yet commands us to be well. He made us flawed, yet commands us to be perfect. We have doubts, yet God requires us to be certain. He gifted us intelligence, yet forbids us to use it. God made us sexual beings, then commands us to be chaste. By demanding our submission to such irrational demands, the God of the Bible set the bar too high.

Message via Mandy...

Just to say I hear what you say about the blogs i have posted, and what you may not know is that I am not able to type more than a few words. So when I am writing about the event we had or anything to do with the family, its not that i don't have anything to say, it is difficult almost impossible to say what I want to say. So thats just me trying to write something when you see something i have written earlier, that is something different altogether. A quote from the book is very different from writing something off the top of my head. For that I need a bit more help so I don't want anyone to think that I am not grateful for everything that you have done. I just cant, I just find it difficult to write and I don't know if you understand this. So I am hugely grateful for everything, even if my responses sound rather short...

 

A turn for the worse...

Everything is changing... and not for the better. If you plan to visit, hold back. More news tomorrow...